I'm not a content creator

I'm an artist with a blog. There's a big difference and I've lost sight of it for so many years. 

I've taken a long hard look at myself. Questioned why do I make art. What do I want my art to be. And more importantly why I DON'T make art. This year I haven't really done much except for art that was meant as a gift: a mural for my parents, some fan art for my cousin and cards for my girlfriend. So I can still make art. Then why don't I do it?

Do I lack ideas? Not at all. Do I lack the time to do so? I'm basically a stay at home cat dad at this point, plenty of time. Do I lack the supplies? Nope. Plenty of those too. Motivation? Surprisingly, it's not that either. Then what's the issue?

I have some sketches in my sketchbook. I should post them. Right. Why not? I just need to figure out what's the format they'll do best on Instagram....should I only post art on Instagram or are personal posts ok? No, that's off topic. Back to art. Ok, so I need to figure out if I should just take a picture of the whole spread or post multiple detail pictures? Oh and hashtags. Figure out what hashtags these fall under. Oh wait, if I treat the Instagram as a portfolio should I put sketches and unfinished work there...do I need a separate account for that? Does it really matter tho? My account is dead, I haven't posted in so long the algorithm will just bury it unless I start posting in a constant rhythm. Yes, that's what I need to do! Post more! But post what? I need to make stuff to post. Figure out a schedule. I can't do a daily post cause I don.t work like that....unless I post daily from older stuff and work to batch make enough posts to have when I finish the old ones. Ok let's see how many old things I have so I know how much time I got to prep other stuff and....ok this is no good. I'd be just churning out soulless art. Ok so no Instagram then. Facebook? Should I post on my profile? The upside is I can proactively add people on there.. but ughh...my art and my family wont mix... that will be awkward. Should I make a Facebook page? Good luck making that worthwhile without paid ads cause Facebook sucks and I'm pretty sure the algorithm is worse than Insta. I KNOW! a professional website! Keep it all shiny and nice... but then again is it weird posting sketches and random rants to something like that. TikTok? Videos are so much work and I know next to nothing about them. Besides I'm too awkward. Man, I wish blogs were still a thing, there was none of this pressure to make everything perfect all the time, no algorithm...oh....

I DON'T MAKE ART CAUSE I'M WAY TOO BUSY OVERTHINKING HOW TO FIT IT IN THE CONTENT CREATION MACHINE. ART SHOULDN'T BE JUST FOR CONTENT.

I don't want to make art to appease an algorithm. 

I don't want my art to spend half a second on someone's grandma screen just to add it to the "success" counter. 

I don't want to spend hours crafting the perfect way to post my art.

I don't want to make my art process look effortless and smooth, I'd rather share the messiness. 

I don't want fame, I want to find community.

So goin back to my roots. Chaos 2010s style bloggin. I'm just an artist with a blog.